My mom just practically called me out on my starving and binging and started laughing and the worst part it was in front of one of my brothers and he started laughing too. And ppl ask why I don't like or get along with my mom.
So I'm at a restaurant right now and my family's eating all this food and I'm so fucking hungry but I can't. I can't eat. I NEED a thigh gap. All I've eaten for the past 32 hrs is water. I'm so proud of myself.!!!! xD
Got in my car, drove to a church parking lot, purged for almost an hour there... That's for commenting on all the food I ate today!
It feels like I'm always drowning but on air. I'm surrounded by people but feel so alone. Smiling but faking it. Crying at night until I pass out from exhaustion. Tears run deep but the voices run deeper.